3. Walking.

I am passionate about Music. The day when I would become a legend is still a Dream. One beautiful day a renowned maestro calls me up and says – Would you like to learn Music? For me, its like half the dream turned into reality. He tells me - I shall teach you music for 500 hours and that’s all about it. Are you ready? Without a moment of hesitation, I nod with a positive reply.

Further he says – There is one condition and that is; Those 500 hours need to be completed in 30 days starting tomorrow morning 5AM. Although I am deeply shocked my passion nonetheless doesn't even give me another thought and with an internal vigor, I say – Yes. The calculation of 16 hours and 40 minutes a day is already done. However, that is not into consideration as I am visioning the obvious outcome out of the investment and dedication.

Did I learn and excel in those 500 hours?

What made me say a Yes?

What is dedication and how is it defined?

Was that the last opportunity of this lifetime?

Did I even think that I should put a little less than 100%?

The replies to initial four inquiries are immaterial. The reply to fifth query is – I felt that THINKING is also a waste of time at this juncture.

The self-management aces in my life gave me an opportunity to take me out and make me understand, realize, listen, learn and teach about nothing but SELF. They too talked on the similar lines on which the maestro focused on. They had a simple question – Have I zeroed down on THE decision / THE purpose of my life?

“What if yes and “What if no” was up to me to think on and do further inquiries.

I said – Well, I have not built up any purpose per se but I want to attain a significant or rather complete peace, bliss in my life and kinda self-realization is the ultimate goal. However I am not certain of how will I walk on it and what exactly needs to be done to judge if my purpose is right or wrong and once I am firm on my purpose what are the steps to be taken?

Observing the observer and experiencing the experience was a theoretical move suggested. What ever happens needs to be treated as happening. I am just a doer of my activity, a contributor in the event, a performer of my role but I cannot make anything happen in its entirety. For instance, a pot-maker makes a pot but he cannot make a pot out of sand. He has the ability to make the pot but he cannot make the pot happen.

What will be the benefit of doing this? Well, it will all come out of rigorous practice and experience and I shall get deeper inquiries from within and also answers to some or most of those. Also, the experts will be there to guide.

It did sound convincing and moreover, I did ask my self – Did I ask a single question to the musician who straightaway told me to give my 500 hours over a period of mere 30 days? Did I check with him on the further benefits and the intermediate milestones?

Well, rigorous practice and inner experience thing sounded good to me but what I did was just a little different than I did with Music maestro. I asked sometime to think about it.

Alas! I am still thinking.