6. Attachment.

I always realize the attachment with someone or something when I am away from that particular someone or something.

The above line sounds pretty much clichéd, yet true. In past 8 odd years, I have been hopping over various parts of the world and staying back for a while at most of the places.

During each of my stay, I knew that my stay is more of a transitory. Sooner or later, I will be moving back to Mumbai, the place where I have been born, buttered and raised with an inherent attachment clinging around. This particular feeling never created any attachment for any geography except Mumbai.

Migrating to any place starts with an initial feeling of high expectations about the place and it really fascinates, most of the times. Here is the journey which follows. Fascination – Initial wonders – Disappointment – Dislike – Grumbling – Getting used to – Start Feeling good – Towards Attachment (but not really) – Separation.

Hence, when I had to leave the place (i.e. the Separation phase) and relocate myself back to Mumbai, the feeling of getting re-connected to Mumbai always excessively superseded over getting disconnected from the particular geography; be it the place, people, relations, likes, habits, money or anything silly or significant – no matter what.

The willingness of relocating to Mumbai and re-connecting to my so called “world” which encompasses of friends, family, likes, dislikes, hobbies, habits, money, etc has by and large always been such an immense attachment and has carried away to such an extent till date that a slight feeling of getting disconnected from it puts me in shatters.

One day, a “have to” will overtake all the “want to’s” and I will not even be left with any scope of thinking on – Why, How and What next?

Note: “have to” - have to quit this world leaving everything behind.

PS: Vishy, it was great to have a conversation today which also helped me put this dwelling-since-long thought on blog. Also, your blog “You don't move away..” gave me precise insight.