Saturday, January 31, 2009

8. Talaash.



aaj kya kuch nahi hai mere paas
phir bhi rahi adhuri ye pyaas
kuch naya paane ke hai khwaab
hardin harpal badhti hai aas

aaj bhi hai mujhe...
...kisi cheez ki talaash

daudte bhaagte phool jaaye saans
rukna mujhe kabhi naa aaye raaz
paa kar sab hota dil baag baag
kho jaye kuch, ho jaata naraaz

aaj bhi hai mujhe...
...kisi cheez ki talaash

bhugatne ka samay hota barbaad
jama karne me juta, dil-o-dimaag
aise hi guzarte mahine aur saal
phir bhi dil se nikalti ek awaaz

aaj bhi hai mujhe...
...kisi cheez ki talaash

sab kuch haasil karne ke baad
gar kuch sadaa rehta janaab
naa hota dukhi naa koi sukhi
dukh ke ant pe hota sukh ka aaghaaz....

ye sab sochkar bhi, samay kar raha hun naash
kyonki, aaj bhi hai mujhe...kisi cheez ki talaash

Monday, January 26, 2009

7. Dream.

This morning I caught up with a friend on my way to office. There was a subtle stillness for a while. Most of the times I agree with Eckhart Tolle who says – Stillness Speaks but at times the silence is so very killing that I enforce my within to speak out loud although I have nothing significant to say.

Anyhow, I wanted to break the silence and I started with a sentence. You know what I had this dream last night where I met you and others in the hotel where we reside.

He nodded with a question – What exactly happened?

I replied – I heard a fire alarm sound and it was pretty much loud and consistent. I just put on my flip-flops, took along my cell and room keys and started stepping down. On my way I met a lot of friends and finally I saw you at the lobby. We stepped out together and were chatting a bit. Meanwhile, the fire-fighters appeared and in few minutes everything was fine. Post that, we jumped into the elevators and dispersed. I reached my room and hit the bed in no time. That was all.

He was listening throughout without a blink of an eye. Gosh! I really wish to be an amazing listener one day. We almost arrived at an intersection from where we had to scatter. At the very juncture, he told me – Dude, that wasn’t a dream; it was real.

That was preposterous. I kept staring at him while he quoted statement followed by a couple of questions – Unfortunately, nothing went wrong and we all happily went to respective rooms. What if something had gone wrong? Would you still have considered this as a dream? He immediately left bidding an adieu.

I kept wondering on the second question till the time I took my elevators to work. I didn’t get any answer but was left with a question. Do I just live in the dreamy world until death (which can strike anytime explaining the reality)?

Sunday, January 25, 2009

6. Hammer & Etch.


The other day I was chatting with one of my friend about listening to spiritual discourses. I admitted that I am not a sound listener.

She tried to flatter me saying I must be concentrating more on implementing rather than listening. I laughed it loud saying I don’t think so.

Listening is hammering. All that is spoken anywhere and everywhere gets hammered on my mind. What happens after that? If I am trying to break a stone and I keep on hammering it, it’s gonna break for sure. What if I am trying to make a sculpture and I just keep on hammering the stone?

After certain hammering, a significant etching is a requisite for creation of the sculpture. This is more of a common sense. Isn’t it?

What do I do in the inner and outer world? I listen to so many things. Rather, I would say, I hear most of the things. Post that, most of the times either I forget or I make sure that I forget most of the things. Even if I feel it’s beneficial to me, I procrastinate and wait for another occasion (rather another hammer) to appear. I want the sculpture to be created just by occasional hammering. I don’t realize that even if the hammering is recurrent or constant, it’s simply not gonna work.

Implementation is etching. It’s worth noticing that etching is also a combination of hammer and chisel but the way it is used is different than plain hammering.

Hammering will give the rough idea of all the things. To implement the ideas I want to and moving on the path is nothing but shaping up the hammered idea.

I simply hammer my mind in and out
In due course, I am filled with doubt
What is right? And what is wrong?
I am still stuck and can’t get along.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

5. Why?

Aasman hai neela kyon, paani geela geela kyon, gol kyon hai zameen?

These opening lines of a song from a bollywood flick “Rock On” literally mean –
Why is the sky blue, why is the water wet and why is the earth round?

Initially, I felt, why has a first-rate lyricist raised such meaningless questions?

Why do I want to run in the rat-race to make money and still crib about it? Why do I want to be grumpy about a no-money situation? Why do I always think of making fast money? Why do I work only for profit? Why do I always think that I have a hidden potential and never try to explore and exploit that potential?

Why do I want to grumble on a happy day thinking too much of happiness is also no good? Why do I not want to sit back and relax for a week? Why do I think that taking a day off without any reason and doing nothing is simply a waste of time? Why do I just keep thinking about the purpose of my life and do nothing about it?

Why do I feel reluctant to admire someone if I actually feel like doing so? Why do I feel heavy on head when I have nothing to do? Why do I feel that despite being loved by so many folks around, I am good for nothing? Why do I feel I am indispensable?

Why do I make contradictory statements? For instance, I want to make quick money but want to play safe too. Why do I feel confident in advising others and when it comes to me – I feel it’s not my cup of tea? Why do I anticipate failure more than success? Why am I scared of diversification?

Why sometimes even if feel so, do not pull out a penny from my pocket and hand it over to beggar? Why do I want to do a charity with my name tag? Why do I never want to be simply selfless? Why am I not ready to incur loss if some one else is benefiting out of it? Why do I always want to pray for myself?

Why do I suffer being lonely in a crowd? Why do I crave for a company when I am literally alone? Why do I carry so much of ego? Why do I want people to notice me? Why do I always think of future? Why do I always strive for a secured life? Why do I hate struggle? Why I don’t have guts to get rid off traditional ways of doing things? Why do I always feel like attempting tried and tested ways? Why do I always want to be ahead of others? Why can I never think of demoting myself?

Why do I never want to write my death certificate? Why do I never want to visualize my dead body? Why do I not realize that I have come with an expiry date? Why don’t I wonder about my post death whereabouts? Why do I never want to die? Why do I strongly believe that I am not gonna die despite being to a funeral an umpteen number of times? Why do I feel that the above six questions are pretty depressing?

Why do I have so many questions? Why do I want to still add more and more questions to this list? Why do I want to pen down such questions and further, why do I want to blog it up?

Why do I always just want to do? Why not be?

The questions in the lyrics are certainly meaningless if I don’t have answer to any of the questions that I have quoted above.

4. pol-IT-ics.

noun: the profession devoted to governing and to political affairs
noun: the study of government of states and other political units
noun: the opinion you hold with respect to political questions
noun: social relations involving authority or power

These are the dictionary definitions of the word politics. Politics is everywhere and literally everyone is involved in it.

In any organisation (be it social or professional), there are aces, kings, queens, jacks, jokers and other cards. Again who is stronger and who is weaker is a perception as each card has a potential to overshadow the other. On the contrary, the status does matter but then again it’s volatile to some extent and dependent to a greater.

The beauty is to win over any situation, if at all I want to. Winning over a situation is about being a right person at the right place on the right time. I might be the best barber but what if I am in the town of baldies. On the other hand, I might be the worst of the lot but if I have a monopoly, no one can dare touch my profit. Another classic example is Olympics or any international sporting event. Every country sends their best sportsperson (national best) to the event but when it comes to a competition with other countrymen, he might just stand no where. He was the best in his well but probably not in the ocean.

Coming to professional world where politics is pretty much apparent, I have been in the IT (information technology) industry for more than 8 years now. Initially, I would feel that here there is hardly any politics but as I started deep-diving into the industry I started sensing the heat.

I would observe people cribbing about being understated by superiors or overshadowed by others. This would be the usual comment - “I am proactive in my work but am pretty much unnoticed.” There isn’t any hard coded solution to this. The repercussions are - Some end up believing – it’s a destiny while some take it up as a revolution by daring to quit and either join another organization or start a new one. There are some who feel that the grass just seems to be greener on the other side and hence I am better off here.

My superior is further answerable to his boss. Hence, he would always want to save-his-back. He seeks the maximum (applaud) and hence wants to extract maximum (work) from his juniors. This is pretty much natural. While working for a certain project for more than 2 years I realised that things were pretty much ok with me till the time I wanted to work. Once I started feeling stagnant and requested for a project change, I was let down in a positive manner. I was showed some carrots. I knew those were the carrots which I will never be able to eat. Hence I was adamant for a change. This was dragged for a couple of months since the appraisal period was nearing. I knew this was happening. I had two choices – either to motivate my self and work for the same project as a result of which I will be promoted or to forget promotion and stay adamant for a change. I chose to forget promotion.

It happened so. I was release from the project at the very month of appraisal. Neither I got any promotion (which was bound to happen) nor did I get any good rating and subsequently significant pay hike. In this very usual scenario which has happened with many of my professional colleagues, I have simply seen people crib about not getting promoted and released at the wrong time et al. I simply felt – It was my choice. Whatever happened was a result of my choice.

According to me, this conclusion can befit any situation. This industry is more like a business. I am not a slave. If I believe, I am a slave (a dependent poor chappie who has nothing in his control) I will always be one and consequently a victim of exploitation and so called politics.

There are 2 things about politics – either you play it or simply quit. There is no place for cribbers.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

3. In Transit.

It’s been more than 8 years I am travelling international. Although haven’t extensively travelled compared to many of my folks around; still I feel like penning down some statistical information (show shining).

I have visited 9 countries in last 8 years – (in chronological order) Cyprus, Canada, UAE, Egypt, Israel, UK, USA, Thailand and New Zealand (Currently, I am in Wellington, New Zealand).

In this span, I have changed 41 flights, experienced 17 international terminals (excluding Mumbai) and grounded in 18 countries. I have been served by 13 different airlines. Food wise, I always chose to be more of a monotonous though as I am a vegetarian and in most of the connections, I have piled on (that was sarcastic) Asian Vegetarian Meal. Other than this, had opted for Jain Meal wherever possible.

Here is the flying statistics:

2000:
Mumbai Bahrain
Bahrain Larnaca

2001:
Larnaca Kuwait (via Damascus)
Kuwait Mumbai
Mumbai Kuwait
Kuwait Larnaca (via Damascus)

Larnaca Frankfurt
Frankfurt Toronto
Toronto Frankfurt
Frankfurt Larnaca

2002:
Larnaca Dubai
Dubai Mumbai
Mumbai Dubai
Dubai Larnaca

Larnaca Tel-Aviv
Tel-Aviv Larnaca

Larnaca Dubai
Dubai Mumbai
Mumbai Dubai
Dubai Larnaca

Larnaca Bahrain
Bahrain Mumbai

2004:
Mumbai London
London Mumbai

2006:
Mumbai Paris
Paris Houston
Houston Dallas
Dallas Atlanta
Atlanta Milan
Milan Mumbai

2007:
Mumbai Bangkok
Bangkok Mumbai

Mumbai Bahrain
Bahrain Frankfurt
Frankfurt Dallas
Dallas Frankfurt
Frankfurt Bahrain
Bahrain Mumbai

2008:
Mumbai Hong Kong
Hong Kong Auckland
Auckland Wellington

Friday, January 9, 2009

2. Ghajini.

Just saw Ghajini at a theatre (a little better than Junkyard) at Wellington, NZ. Mumbai is pretty much better off when it comes to entertainment.

Anyhow, movie deserved the theatre. It was an awfully funny flicko. I am glad that Aamir acts in only one movie per year.

I might not be writing a review here. This is more of an experience. The 11 buck popcorn coke combo was the best. Neither the movie nor the popcorn was coming to an end. Thankfully, I got a few burps which I feel were enough to live without dinner.

Upside - The first half is bearable. Aamir has worked more on physics than chemistry.
Flipsides - Too many to mention. A stereotypical southie feeling was pretty much eveident during the entire show. I did miss Aamir Khan in the movie.

Go watch it at your own risk but I would suggest - Go in a group as I did.

Net-net, A short-term-memory loss centred flick worth forgetting soon :)

Sunday, January 4, 2009

1. 5 years...

Today I step into the 6th year of my services with Tech Mahindra.
5 years were too long and too short as well :)

In a way, I am truly amazed the way I’ve been patient for 5 long years. I truly remember when I joined, Priti had gifted me with a pair of business formals for jumping into a new venture (we were in the courtship at that time) and I had commented – I am such an impatient person that you will have to gift me every 6 months for my new ventures :). That was my 3rd venture in 3 years of my IT career. I never knew I am gonna come a long way.

Don’t wanna look back but still I feel that these 5 years were pretty much action-packed and versatile. Across geographies (Mumbai, Pune, Ipswich-UK, Dallas, Wellington), I observed and experienced many shades of life.

Overall, a learning experience with a deserving outcome.

PS: Coincidentally, the day I joined 5 years back was a Monday too. :)